2011
Patalinhaga
I sat there. Dazed. At the things that unraveled within a span of a few hours. I had thought that this phase in my life was over. I thought we had gotten past these kinds of things. But like the song, we’ve only just begun.
We’ve only just begun,
White lace and promises
A kiss for luck and we’re on our way
We’ve only begun…
I suppose we’ve only just begun. And yet I find myself terrified. Petrified. Stupefied. Every step is well calculated and well timed. Every step is leap of faith. The thought and risk that at any point I could crash and burn terrifies me beyond belief. I’ve crashed and burned before. But I reluctantly got up. I don’t know if I’m going to get up a second time nor do I know if I want to. Nothing is stopping her from walking away.
Forgive me for this part of the post.
I was watching this really cheesy movie the other day and it was a JLC and Bea movie. They were talking about KL and the Petronas towers and how they imagine that two were lovers. They pondered the thought of what the other tower was saying to the other while holding hands. (They look like they are actually!) And the Bea’s character said “Masaya ako pag kasama ka.” Wherein JLC’s character abruptly said, “Ako din….. sabi ng isa”
I don’t know why I shared this thought or memory. Maybe is to be able to use the Twin Towers pic I took when I was in KL. Maybe because I’m leaving for KL in a few days. I really don’t know. I am both filled with excitement and trepidation. Last time I left I came home broken. I hope I don’t come home broken this time around.
