I sat there. Dazed. At the things that unraveled within a span of a few hours. I had thought that this phase in my life was over. I thought we had gotten past these kinds of things. But like the song, we’ve only just begun. We’ve only just begun, White lace and promises A kiss for luck and we’re on our way We’ve only begun… I suppose we’ve only just [...]
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I sat there, thinking of what I’ve just done and although it was for the good of everyone involved, it sickened me. The thought of myself sickened me. This was not who I was. But I had to learn it. I had to learn to deal with it. It was part of growing up. This was what everyone told me. When I was just a kid nobody told me growing [...]
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2 years ago I was kneeling at the exact same spot, broken, shattered, and lost. I made promises. I made deals. I just wanted to stop hurting. I wanted to stop feeling. But I knew I couldn’t, I shouldn’t. I had to go through this. I had to live through this. I had to learn. I decided I wouldn’t let this thing beat me. I asked for strength. I asked [...]
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Ang blogpost na ito ay marahil isa sa mga pinakamahalagang artikulo na aking maiililikha sa talambuhay ng isang taong nag ngangalang Carlos Palma. Marahil marami sa inyo ang hindi mauunawan kung paano at kung bakit ako naging pagong. Kung bakit ninanais ko ang maging isang pagong. Bagama’t ang pagong ay mabagal, isa itong hayop na kapuri-puri sa kanyang pagkatatag at resilyente. (may salita bang ganun?) Ang pagong ay may isang [...]
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So I blog. Ever feel like imploding? That uncontrollable urge to just self destruct and start all over? I have. Multiple times actually. But I don’t. Why? Beats me. Maybe I am called to serve a higher purpose or some bullcrap like that even I sometimes don’t believe in. I think I’ve mentioned multiple times on this blog that life is a series of choices, followed by highs and lows. [...]
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There are just some days you’d love to be out and about just driving around the city or to a province to get away. Last night, I was thinking about the up coming year and all the trips and vacations that I’m about to embark on. Funny. I talk about blogging and how everything and content and engagement is deeply rooted in experience and here I am, lacking in. Quite [...]
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So finally project carlos took flight or rather took ground again last night. Running or rather briskly walking for about 2 hours and 8kms later I was a bag of sweat barely breathing through my gaped mouth. I was really severely, crazy out of shape again. Gone are the days I can run 12km in a span of an hour. Now I’m a bag of sweat. Pushing myself every inch [...]
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Ok so Project Carlos Season 1 ended a few months back and I guess its time now for Season 2 to start. It feels like I’m back to square 1 and all the weight that I had lost I had put back on again! Friggin Holiday season is coming up and I vow to at least fit into my stupid costume this year by making it one size too small! [...]
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Aside from starting to blog again, I’ve got someone new to play with! I’ve been searching for it for almost 3 years now! Danbo started to travel to me. He had to walk and climb a lot of obstacles to get to where I was! Danbo: Hi! I’m Danbo! L: Hi I’m L! And when he finally arrived he met a new friend! L: So have you met our [...]
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