Unexpected

It was one of those days that just felt for the first time normal despite the abnormal things I had to do. I did my first photoshoot for a band today. They’ll use it for a newspaper press release. I get published at the same time. That’s always awesome. I got some good news from my favorite agency regarding a particular client I have been chasing for months now, and I got this really weird post from my sister on tumblr.

I call this day unexpected because I’ve been feeling like crap for the past few months and with all the crazy shit I’ve gone through lately, for the first time I really felt that I am starting to move on. I’ve reconnected with old friends, started doing things I stopped doing, and well am just feeling an overwhelming sense of freedom. Of course occasionally I miss that person because not only was she my gf but she was my bestfriend too, but well life moves on. I always liked in particular how I can always count on someone to be happy for me no matter how small the accomplishment or how that person would be beaming with pride with every bit of good news. I lost that one person, but I am now starting to realize gained so much more as well. I’ve regained the friends I stopped confiding into. You know that you are indeed a good person/great friend when even after 3 years of not talking to them, loosing touch, basically stopped being a friend to them as well, one call or text message is all it takes and it seems as if time was never an issue. Thank you for that. I miss talking on the phone, and just being generally available for my calls. Although it was hard to lose someone as important as her, it was always equally liberating to find out that there is so much more to gain. There is so much more out there. I realize now that the lies in the relationship whether it be to her parents or to each other was not so that we could go out more but instead hindered us. I realize now that from the get-go I should have asked for the truth. Nothing more. Her mom understands. We’ve talked a few times since. I think I want to treat her to lunch or dinner just so I can say my proper goodbyes. That will be my last entry regarding that matter. I want to close this chapter as soon as possible. Not because I want to forget, no I don’t want to forget. But rather, because I am excited of what the future holds. I am excited at what tomorrow is bringing. I wake up now slightly a bit sunnier, there is a slight skip in my step, and the twinkle in my eye is starting to return. Soon. Don’t worry I’ll be the regular happy person that I usually am.

Like a friend told right before we parted ways, “Smile! Hindi bagay sa’yo ang hindi naka-ngiti!”

I leave you now with the entry my sister Colleen posted on her tumblr (I am encouraging her to write as much as possible!) and my daily comic

*please excuse her grammar and english, she is a 10 year old little girl. she has yet to grasp the concept and importance of punctuation marks. Anyhoo, its the thought that counts. I am a huge stickler for proper grammar and punctuation. It actually is one of my pet peeves.

you can see her tumblr at http://colleenpalma.tumblr.com